its hard to get over something that you said you wouldnt do but you did it anyway and then it goes wrong. i told myself wouldnt let myself be vulnerable and let my guard down and i did. now im paying it for, and its like all i wanna do it move on and get over it, in some ways i have, but in others it just feels like an annoy thing that i cant get rid of. i feel like i am to blame and its all my fault, but it really isnt… but at the same time i feel like im playing for something that i cant change, and all i wanted to do was make everything right. but anything i try to do goes wrong and i never win. but i guess i will just have to get over it and keep my promises to myself better. and not trying to give my all and ending up hurt and miserable because i feel like i failed this task. story of my life i suppose.